Year Ender

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I am exactly the same, the bygone year I was, the one before, and the one I last remember contemplating. Contemplating as to what would have gone right, what should I have done to make things right, with lots of what if’s and what not’s.Here I am again, just lettering my anguish in my blog this time…

Knowledge is brutal in a way, as it never aids me when I need it the most. But will always beckon me when I am down and out letting me know that vigorous years which I see off will be only good for nothing. Except that when the time comes, you got to pass it down, the knowledge and the experiences that is.

"The only reason for time is so that everything doesn't happen at once"
- Albert Einstein

He said it right, but I doubt he said it at the right age. I don’t know about others but for me the right age is the youth. The years when you are full of life, zeal and gist to do something… to become someone…. to take risks and to digest the failures…. to relish the moments of regret…. to relive those shattered dreams…..

Age and wisdom are well separated by time. I always feel that I should discreetly do the right thing at the right time, speak right, act right and pick the right people and what not. But in the world I live, in the life I lead, I know that opportunities that come by and the actions I take to utilize them … both of them pass each other briefly… glancing at each other…

I feel if only I knew it earlier as to what will happen, I wouldn’t end up leading an unfulfilled life. I don’t want my hair to grow grey, and by that time I would have learned enough to realize only that my prima face is over…

Like they say in movies… I want it all… I want it now and not tomorrow….

Oddly, with all that has changed in the year gone by, with all that hasn’t changed, with all that will never change, I feel it was a fair one…

On the eve of a new year I find myself in the exact same place I was last year. About to go to the happening New Year bash in town. May be I’ll have the same Scotch whisky I had last year, but the fervor is quite unlike from what I had for 2008.

This year I got married to this girl I knew, with whom I happened to be in love for the past 7 years in my life, whom I like a lot even today [strange but true] , whom I will be celebrating a full blown new year with.. .and may be many more years to come…

Even otherwise I quite like 31 December night because,

This night like all the other nights, will be past
But this night, unlike all the other nights will also be the year’s last

Happy New Year!!!


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Doll

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Out of all over to here, you came baby dear…
Eyes so blue, as though the sky came through…
Smile so bliss, like an angel’s kiss…
Lil fingers and feet those lovely things, like cupid’s wings…
Grow up safe and nice, my niece… Into a fine lady, stunning and charming…
May that little shine in your eyes sparkle for as long…

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S

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S, this one’s for you……..

You have been there, done that. Time and again you have done that. With amazing regularity you have done that. You did it yesterday too. You look completely at ease when you do that. I keep losing myself and you keep bringing me back. You know how much I love you and how much I mean it when I say it.

I heard somewhere that attitude is a little thing, but makes a big difference. We both are as different as stalk and cheese in our own ways. But it’s the way you pull me back, that matters. You may sound different, act preachy, act bossy, do your lovey-dovey thing, be cute, be naughty, be rude… but you exactly know what to do when and that is all matters.

But one thing is sure, it’s not always that I look at you, look up to you. It’s always that you are there certainly for me, when I need you. This, even before I realize I need you then at the very first place.

Cheers for your never say die attitude. Girl, I tell you. You rock…. Big time at that!!!

Bravo!!! Voila!!! Luv u………………….

PS: That mca thingie was a killer :)

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