The post I never wished to publish

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I live in a world beyond your world. And you were a part of it sometime back. When reading this post, you might think “I thought so, that you will end up writing about this”. See I knew this about you, may be the day I knew it, I should have written this post. When I think back or see things that remind you, I feel nothing and I think of the feeling I would have had, earlier.

I longed for that one magical moment I would have with you, by sticking around hell lot of time with you. I think I was being arrogant to myself when I thought of your ignorance as your arrogance. From a speed dial contact to the one I search for in my phonebook, you have come a long way or should I say I have finally evolved. For the most part of it, I felt it was a foregone conclusion. But for the fact that, it concluded. And as always, I was a bit late to wake up and smell the coffee.

Many-a-time when you come in my stories I tell these days, I still dignify and glamorize you. Not for the fact that you have been around for long enough, Not for what you did to me and what you didn’t , Not also for what you are these days, but for the life I had, had with you and for me, for the way I used to be. Also for the thoughts that worked, for the actions that never. I don’t seriously expect you to think of me much these days, but as they say you can’t be friends in any which way with anyone all the time, So I think like the way it appeals to me and so forth.

Sometimes I might have you, might have had you, but never there was a doubt in my mind that it was “I” making it happen all the way. In a couple of years, I end my twenties and hence my mind pesters me these days to start forgiving people and says you are a good start. I always was a bad dreamer and in a way my dreams always hinted me at what’s in the store ahead for me. And I swear I foresaw this, you being around all through but for one thing.

To be continued...

D

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