Year Ender

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I am exactly the same, the bygone year I was, the one before, and the one I last remember contemplating. Contemplating as to what would have gone right, what should I have done to make things right, with lots of what if’s and what not’s.Here I am again, just lettering my anguish in my blog this time…

Knowledge is brutal in a way, as it never aids me when I need it the most. But will always beckon me when I am down and out letting me know that vigorous years which I see off will be only good for nothing. Except that when the time comes, you got to pass it down, the knowledge and the experiences that is.

"The only reason for time is so that everything doesn't happen at once"
- Albert Einstein

He said it right, but I doubt he said it at the right age. I don’t know about others but for me the right age is the youth. The years when you are full of life, zeal and gist to do something… to become someone…. to take risks and to digest the failures…. to relish the moments of regret…. to relive those shattered dreams…..

Age and wisdom are well separated by time. I always feel that I should discreetly do the right thing at the right time, speak right, act right and pick the right people and what not. But in the world I live, in the life I lead, I know that opportunities that come by and the actions I take to utilize them … both of them pass each other briefly… glancing at each other…

I feel if only I knew it earlier as to what will happen, I wouldn’t end up leading an unfulfilled life. I don’t want my hair to grow grey, and by that time I would have learned enough to realize only that my prima face is over…

Like they say in movies… I want it all… I want it now and not tomorrow….

Oddly, with all that has changed in the year gone by, with all that hasn’t changed, with all that will never change, I feel it was a fair one…

On the eve of a new year I find myself in the exact same place I was last year. About to go to the happening New Year bash in town. May be I’ll have the same Scotch whisky I had last year, but the fervor is quite unlike from what I had for 2008.

This year I got married to this girl I knew, with whom I happened to be in love for the past 7 years in my life, whom I like a lot even today [strange but true] , whom I will be celebrating a full blown new year with.. .and may be many more years to come…

Even otherwise I quite like 31 December night because,

This night like all the other nights, will be past
But this night, unlike all the other nights will also be the year’s last

Happy New Year!!!


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