Love.Actually...

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Loving S since I knew I could.

Loving Mom. Hey come on, she is mom!! Loving Dad, the best man I know in my life. Loved Sis. Loving someone since Mom said so. Tried loving someone since Dad said so. Loving D and V, unconditionally. Acting like I love someone since S said so. Loving my friends. Not true, incase of their friends. Loving people who aren’t worth it. Loving someone to see if I can. Loving someone to see if they can. Loving many times just to be loved. Loved knowingly sometimes and unknowingly many times. Loved people going good, sometimes. Loved many more times, seeing them take a fall.

Loved sometimes people who were right next to me, knowing I cannot have them. Loved doing the same to some of them, too. Loved the fact that life goes on. Loved it more when my mind controlled my heart. Loving someone and being said that I was a friend. However, doing the same felt never so good. Loving sometimes just to recall those as my favorite mistakes. Loving sometimes, just for a day. Loving sometimes for years silently. Loving sometimes just to end up as biggest regrets in my life. Loving sometimes and failing. Loved the pain because nobody heard it. Loving someone unnecessarily just to complicate things. Loving sometimes not for what they are, but for what I thought they are.

Loving sometimes for these: SEXY. Friends who were sexy. Friends of friends who were sexy.Sings well.Dances well.Agony aunt types. Engaged. Married. Mysterious. Arrogant. Teachers. Sis friends. Loved realizing the fact that second love was more interesting than the first.The third even better. And it goes on.[The list is endless]

Loving sometimes thinking I am falling in love, realizing real quick that I am falling apart. Loved letting it go sometimes because I want to, sometimes I had to. Hated when I got to watch someone I love, loving someone else. Loved it when I loved them, still. Loving someone as much as they hate me. Loving someone since I know them, without saying. Loving someone just to make love. Loving someone today knowing I won’t love them tomorrow, but for the fact that I loved them yesterday. Loved leaving a relationship, to save my pride. Forgetting people, after falling in love because I want to. Loving someone even though they aren’t worthy enough for me, just to make them feel special.

Loving and being loved almost all the times, snubbing and being snubbed rarely.

PS:

Loving it while I am writing this:
S, I love you because you are the best part of me!!!

D

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