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The greatest of the journeys lie in the distance between two people.
I heard that everyone lends a hand when something crumbles. Well don’t ask for a testimony for that, it’s not that I don’t have, just that I don’t give a damn on giving you one. The toughest thing to do is let go, which I am great at as I have been there and done that. I have seen people who are paranoid, who can’t come into terms with the life they have and with the life they get. If you are doing a thing intentionally, no one including you can save you from what I call “doing the honors”.
Pretention is an art in itself, but you can’t go to a war with yourself. You can fight the whole world, but you will always be at the losing end if your fight is within. Geographically we might not be challenged, but emotionally yes. I don’t have the gift of ignoring you since I have been in the know for all of my life, all of these 28 years [almost 28]. Let’s play this the cold blooded gentleman way. Let’s not play as if nothing happened. When we bump into each other the next time, let’s acknowledge each other. May be I shall smile or smirk at you and I won’t give you the pain to revert as I shall move on.
Moving on, that is what I shall try and do. It should be fun and I already see myself [moved on and all] sitting pretty with mere zero or no thoughts of you meandering in my mind hopefully by the time I holiday next time.
As far as the intangible things go, this new window seating at the workplace is irritating. I feel as if the whole world is peeping into my lappie toppie.
Shit happens. Life goes on..
And I only play lead roles.
D
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Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Monday, August 9, 2010
The post I never wished to publish
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I live in a world beyond your world. And you were a part of it sometime back. When reading this post, you might think “I thought so, that you will end up writing about this”. See I knew this about you, may be the day I knew it, I should have written this post. When I think back or see things that remind you, I feel nothing and I think of the feeling I would have had, earlier.
I longed for that one magical moment I would have with you, by sticking around hell lot of time with you. I think I was being arrogant to myself when I thought of your ignorance as your arrogance. From a speed dial contact to the one I search for in my phonebook, you have come a long way or should I say I have finally evolved. For the most part of it, I felt it was a foregone conclusion. But for the fact that, it concluded. And as always, I was a bit late to wake up and smell the coffee.
Many-a-time when you come in my stories I tell these days, I still dignify and glamorize you. Not for the fact that you have been around for long enough, Not for what you did to me and what you didn’t , Not also for what you are these days, but for the life I had, had with you and for me, for the way I used to be. Also for the thoughts that worked, for the actions that never. I don’t seriously expect you to think of me much these days, but as they say you can’t be friends in any which way with anyone all the time, So I think like the way it appeals to me and so forth.
Sometimes I might have you, might have had you, but never there was a doubt in my mind that it was “I” making it happen all the way. In a couple of years, I end my twenties and hence my mind pesters me these days to start forgiving people and says you are a good start. I always was a bad dreamer and in a way my dreams always hinted me at what’s in the store ahead for me. And I swear I foresaw this, you being around all through but for one thing.
To be continued...
D
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I live in a world beyond your world. And you were a part of it sometime back. When reading this post, you might think “I thought so, that you will end up writing about this”. See I knew this about you, may be the day I knew it, I should have written this post. When I think back or see things that remind you, I feel nothing and I think of the feeling I would have had, earlier.
I longed for that one magical moment I would have with you, by sticking around hell lot of time with you. I think I was being arrogant to myself when I thought of your ignorance as your arrogance. From a speed dial contact to the one I search for in my phonebook, you have come a long way or should I say I have finally evolved. For the most part of it, I felt it was a foregone conclusion. But for the fact that, it concluded. And as always, I was a bit late to wake up and smell the coffee.
Many-a-time when you come in my stories I tell these days, I still dignify and glamorize you. Not for the fact that you have been around for long enough, Not for what you did to me and what you didn’t , Not also for what you are these days, but for the life I had, had with you and for me, for the way I used to be. Also for the thoughts that worked, for the actions that never. I don’t seriously expect you to think of me much these days, but as they say you can’t be friends in any which way with anyone all the time, So I think like the way it appeals to me and so forth.
Sometimes I might have you, might have had you, but never there was a doubt in my mind that it was “I” making it happen all the way. In a couple of years, I end my twenties and hence my mind pesters me these days to start forgiving people and says you are a good start. I always was a bad dreamer and in a way my dreams always hinted me at what’s in the store ahead for me. And I swear I foresaw this, you being around all through but for one thing.
To be continued...
D
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